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Now
You're the Enemy
James Allen Hall
This
interview is also available on Foreword Magazine’s website.
Any
particular story to tell concerning the writing of Now You're
the Enemy?
One story, about the title, seems important to tell.
My younger brother and I were talking one night while we cooked
dinner. Dustin had met this beautiful man, they dated briefly, and
we were analyzing the demise of the relationship over dinner.
Dustin said to me, "Whenever a man says I love you, the first
thing I think is, Great. Now you're the enemy." It was the
saddest and most lacerating statement; it nailed exactly the feeling
of the poems I'd been fashioning—this book about loving a
self-destructive mother figure, how that shapes subjectivity, and
what happens when we find ourselves shipwrecked on the shores of
Love Always Fails Us.
I was deeply concerned about writing about other peoples' histories
(their successes, their failures). In Now You're the Enemy,
a mother figure takes center stage, and the speaker's fascination
and love for her despite/because of her self-destructive tendencies
is perhaps the light that shines down from the tech booth. When
I realized I was writing a manuscript loosely based on my own mother,
I was plagued by the ethics of representing another person: what
if I didn't get it right? won't the facts be inherently flawed?
I tried my best to exile those questions to keep writing. Writing
about her was the one connection I had with my mother at the time.
The exile was not successful. The questions continued to ask themselves.
I answered by troubling narration and representation. I wanted to
contest the notion of a single story, one person's truth. I wrote
a series of poems that drew on visual art and history. "Portrait
of My Mother as the Republic of Texas" was the first, soon
followed by portraits of my mother as Rosemary Woodhouse (of Rosemary's
Baby), the lost queen from King Lear, and a fake entry
in an encyclopedia—to name a few. Writing about other women
who mask my mother, I was able to uncover really strange parallels
between many women's lives and the shaping forces of politics, religion,
and art. Ultimately, the poems tell us something beyond my mother's
story. Or, to say it another way, they are versions of my mother
as intersected and voiced by others throughout history.
I felt relieved after the book found its home; I knew that the book
was finished and that I couldn't do anything else for/to it. I lived
in the dark rooms of that book for a while, and I'm glad now to
have moved out.
How
has your mother responded to the book?
I waited until it was at press to tell her; I didn't want to make
editorial changes based on her reactions. Because I have friends
who write about family members in memoir, I know there is no way
to gauge what, exactly, might upset someone. I feel grateful that
she loves the book. She has a good sense of humor and self, and
she knows that the mother in that book is and is not her. Though,
responding to a poem in which a friend calls my mother an incendiary
name, my mother said, "Tell Elycia she can kiss my ass."
Then we both laughed really hard.
When
did you start reading, and what did you like to read?
I cut my teeth on glossy, operatic romance novels which my grandmother
used to hawk at her yard-sales. The first time I wrote to an author,
I was seven years old, and I'd been moved by a Harlequin title.
I no longer remember the author or the book. Only the bodice-ripping
remains.
My parents owned a cleaning service, and Wednesday nights my brothers
and I would help them scour an already-sterile doctor's office.
On breaks—when my mother would smoke—I'd pry any random
book from the doctor's shelves and sit myself down on his beautiful
leather couch. I was maybe ten, poring over anatomically correct
models, reading about sexual malfunction. It thrilled me.
I pilfered my parents' collection too. Two titles loom out from
the living room bookshelf of my childhood: Other Healers, Other
Cures, a guidebook of alternative medicine, and Psychotic
God, a biography of Hitler.
The first large novels I loved were Steven King's. As a boy, I read
my father's disappointment when he gave me the Lord of the Rings
series—I hated it. Where were the heroines?
In the fourth grade, I devoured every version of every Greek myth
I could get my hands on. God, I loved those stories: of jealousy
and creation, rape and dismemberment, beauty and violence conflated.
I loved comparing versions of the same story, as if one writer knew
more about the gods than another. These myths were like gossip columns.
I had passing dalliances with Norse and Egyptian mythologies as
well.
Somewhere in high school, a Christmas present: Sylvia Plath's Collected
Poems. I just about washed my eyes in it.
I read anything when I was a kid, convinced that books could save
my life.
How do you write? What's good about it? What do you hate
about it?
The first draft for almost every poem of Now You're the Enemy
was composed in couplets. I believe that you can spot an out-of-place
word, an awkward phrase, a bum image so easily in a couplet. After
the initial draft, I subverted the form, working with longer strophes,
dropped lines, and stanzaic pattern; that's one way I knew when
to say when. The end product was very different for most of the
poems in the book.
In general, I unfold from dramatic situation. Who are the characters?
Where are they? In my first workshops as an undergraduate, I only
added settings in revision. I'd have something I liked, and then
I'd realize that there was no world, no context, virtually no position
from which this speaker sang. That changed as soon as I became more
conscious of it. In revision now, I consciously add sonic texture
to the poem. I know poets who start there, but for me that's largely
the work of revision: I need to put up the walls first before I
start to make the music resonate and echo. That kind of revising
allows me another entrance into the poem, to re-envision through
sound what and how the poem might mean. I hope my process continues
to shift; I suspect that different projects need different things
from us.
Writing is the one pure act. I love that, when I write, I'm simultaneously
transcending and analyzing myself. No poem exists devoid of some
mark of the author's mind. So, all writing bears some relationship
to the self. But, then, writing a poem makes me feel selfless. The
song blaring on the radio, the telephone, the neighbor's baby—all
of it falls away. To be aware of one's senses in altogether senseless
way, as pure intellect and emotion. To feel, for once, timeless.
What good advice have you received concerning writing?
What's some advice that you could offer young writers?
April Bernard: "You chose to be a writer, to say the difficult
thing. Say the difficult thing."
Liam Rector: "Always Be Closing."
Ellen Bryant Voigt: Write more syntactically interesting sentences.
Jorie Graham, quoting Frost?: "No discovery for the writer,
no discovery for the reader."
Find your aesthetic. Then read the opposite, or adjoining, aesthetic.
Read prose on poetry by poets. Wallace Stevens' "The Irrational
Element in Poetry" changed the way I write. Ditto Louise Glück's
Proofs and Theories. I recommend a wonderful anthology called Women
Reclaim Poetry edited by Molly McQuade.
If there's an opportunity to show your writing to other writers,
take it. Everyone has something to teach you. Your job is to find
what that something is, then to separate the useful from the useless
(and sometimes detrimental). Seek out smart criticism, the most
blunt, most honest that you can find. Pray that your teachers are
hard on you, and let their voices into your process. As hard as
they are on you, be even harder on yourself. When praise comes along,
relish it half as much as critique, but twice as long.
Does this mean I'm not young anymore? Thank god; oh shit.
Courtney Love: "I want to be the girl with the most cake."
How
did you find the publisher for this book? What has your experience
with the publisher been like?
I've admired poets in the Arkansas series for a while: David Baker,
Billy Collins, Michelle Boisseau, to name a few. When the manuscript
was finished—very shortly after I finished my degree at Houston—I
began researching contests and publishers. I sent to Arkansas in
October of 2006; it was taken the following June.
If I may be allowed a slight effusiveness: The University of Arkansas
has been everything I could hope for in a publisher. They sought
my input for cover art selection and design, they put up with my
late-hour edits, they encouraged me, they've kept the process transparent
and swift. And they make beautiful books.
What
are you working on at the moment?
A memoir, tentatively titled I Liked You Better When I Didn't
Know You So Well. Pieces have appeared in literary journals
such as Redivider, Bellingham Review, Cimarron
Review, and others. I'm also building another manuscript of
poems concerned with violence, masculinity, sex, and (strangely
enough, as if in spite of my irreverent self) spirituality.
What
are you reading?
I read poetry and creative nonfiction, mostly, though I love novels
and have an especial hunger for the short story form. Michael Dumanis'
My Soviet Union, a collection of essays by Thomas Glave
called Words to Our Now, Sean Hill's Blood Ties and
Brown Liquor, Cate Marvin's Fragment of the Head of a Queen,
Miguel Murphy's A Book Called Rats, and Ann Patchett's
memoir Truth and Beauty are all keeping me up late. After
reading her second and third books, I've finally found my way to
Natasha Tretheway's Domestic Work. I could say many things
about these books—their linguistic invention and play, the
ways each of them revitalize the use of image, the formal acuity
of each writer. But I'll shorthand it: go read these books.
I also read current issues of journals: Gulf Coast, jubilat, Ploughshares.
Not enough.
What
are you watching?
I'll watch anything Bravo shoves out onto its airwaves. Love Project
Runway, My Life on the D-List, and Top Chef.
I wish I could produce a tv channel that played endless loops of
episodes from Buffy the Vampire Slayer, The Golden
Girls, Designing Women, Veronica Mars, and
My So Called Life. My dream channel would produce new episodes
of the short-lived series Wonderfalls and Noah's Arc, a
campy but compelling series that follows four gay black men in Los
Angeles. Late at night, the channel would switch suddenly writers
reading from their works, live from cafés and colleges and
streetcorners from around the world. Mixed in—the occasional,
sensational Cher video. |